Naive {PVT

Here's the thing about Oli, I just feel so related, I've gone through this, in fact I'm still going, I've had 7 suicide attempts, one almost go well, but then mi parents found me and it wasn't good, I saw them crying, I saw them worried and I though it was all my fault, I was Anorexic, probably I'm still anorexic and I just want to die every single day, I see the marks on my wrists, hips & thighs, its just feels wrong, it's like I'm broken, I'm so so so broken I can't be fixed, but then I look a Oli, Austin, Vic, Kellin and so many more and it feels right, I'm now at a moment in which it can only goes better or worse, I see this man and I feel strong and I know I'm gonna make it.
"It's funny how when you are dying you can only think you don't want to die, well I'm dying every day and I'm not scared anymore"